All I can think of is just NO.
I blame my own inability to have fun or maybe enjoy social events in general, I don't know. I'm not really sure whether it's just that I don't feel like myself lately or I just surround myself with people I don't have much in common.
Lately I don't feel like going out,
eating (that much) or just enjoying myself. This feels like sabotaging myself more than anything and it hurts. Not in physical way but knowing that you are capable of doing things on 100% and instead of that doing them just on like 60%, it's just throwing away your potential even tho you can think at this moment 60% is your personal best.
I hate myself for that. I hate myself for not caring about this and not caring about others.
Maybe it will all fade away soon or maybe I will find something to aim on and will be focused on that specific thing but for now, it just seems so far away, so unrealistic that for me, it just doesn't exist
(Okay, this turned out quite personal, whatever, idc)
mám to stejně. proto, abych se mohla bez překážet a bez stresu bavit, musím se opít, jinak to nedokážu.
OdpovědětVymazathttp://ordinary-silly-things.blogspot.com
it will go away!
OdpovědětVymazathad it the same and now it's got much better and i live great full life, surrounding myself with people i like and that like me!